RIP to Your Self-hate & Negativity
I encourage you to say RIP to your self-hate and negativity! Don’t dwell on the times where these two weren’t at rest. The times where their heavy weight held you down from flying amongst the suburban songbirds don’t matter anymore. WHAT MATTERS IS HOW YOU CURRENTLY SPEND YOUR TIME!
Leave all those defiling thoughts of self-hate to rot in the ground, to be swarmed by all the creepy crawlies and rollie pollies of the damp soil. Let them go. That self-hate of yours deserves to be smothered deep in the Earth, so you can feel lighter and work on self-love and peace of mind.
Bury as much of your negativity as you can, right beside the black, stench-filled smoke of your self-hate. Your negativity is the worst kind of activity, the kind that comes after you, no matter how far you move or how much you try to ignore it. It’s that force that tries to soothe you with the comfort of familiarity in a gross and firm Skeletor grip, keeping you stagnant.
If you’re scared to say RIP to your self-hate & negativity, don’t be. One can become too comfortable in their own misery when it’s the only way they’ve lived. Beautiful child of the stars, I assure you that it’s not the only way. However, it is a guaranteed way to hold yourself back. It keeps you in a vicious cycle akin to a bad scene from a poorly produced movie on repeat in some serial killer’s basement.
It’s entirely possible to say RIP to your self-hate & negativity and to put self-love & positivity in its place! But, will this transition happen as rapidly as a she-wolf raging at her seams during a full moon? No, most likely not. Unless you’ve tapped into something that the extraterrestrials of PSL and I haven’t quite figured out yet, lemme know.
Changing the way you think takes time, but it’s entirely within your reach. It does, however, need a lot of your help! Think about it like seeds planted during the day in the graveyard. They will bloom into beautiful flowers that serve as gentle visions amidst an array of departed souls.
Yet, those vibrant graveyard flowers don’t bloom overnight. Instead, their beauty stirs underneath the soil, awakening more and more each day, aided by the sun and rain. Think of the sun as your effort to be more positive. Think of the rain as hard days that are inevitable but necessary for your evolution.
It’s okay if you still feel called to the darkness surrounding the headstone of your shadows. It becomes familiar and sickly comforting when we’ve put so much energy into dark thoughts and feelings. However, I want you to gaze up at the luminosity of a full moon and honestly ask yourself if self-hate and negativity have ever led you closer to where you want to be.
Has self-hate & negativity brought me closer to where I want to be?
If you answered no, then you’re aware of this dark, toxic loop. If you answered yes, then congratulations, you’re a masochist.
Your self-hate may try to escape from its burial, insistent on reminding you of a bunch of BS only meant to keep you from flying.
Your negativity will manage to creep out of its grave, with spindly legs, an evil smile, and devious intentions of promoting all kinds of low and crappy vibrations. It’s all very anti-Marky Mark, and it’s not cool!
And if these two shady characters from beyond the grave still manage to follow you home, it’s okay. However, you can lessen their power as each day goes on. YOU CAN DO THIS by changing how you talk to yourself, view yourself, and being gentler with yourself. One sweet day, you may even love yourself. Really.
Your self-hate and negativity will eventually grow super bored.
“Who is this person? I just heard them say, I AM ENOUGH.
Barf.
I keep hearing them say, I CAN DO THIS. What the hell is this crap? Let’s peace out and find someone better to feed off of!”
And day by day, they’ll grow more and more distant. The days and nights will go by, and they won’t stay as long as they used to. They’re too busy feeding off of any crappy, anti-Marky Mark-type vibes. You’ve become a real buzzkill to them.
You’ll visit them occasionally, perhaps during a moonless night where light is scarce, and you’re feeling too drawn to the darkness. “I remember you, but I don’t miss you,” you’ll think. Yet, I understand you so well & you’ve taught me so much. Thank you self-hate and negativity. Your darkness somehow led me to the light. And then you’ll stare upwards, witnessing a sea of shining stars in a sky you once believed to be black.
“I’m banishing my self-hate and negativity the best I can. I’m shifting my focus to the stars that still shine amongst the darkness,” you’ll exclaim in a powerful declaration to the self.